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Hey this is brock right now my life sucks. The wrong turns i made in life turn my back on my friends leaving people who i care about behind that should really care about. The wrong turns i went through in my life is getting in fights with some of my friends and cant go outside because of afraid of getting jumped or people will say stuff that will hurt my feelings. And my life is falling to peaces because of my heart problems no girls want me because i dont get out side that much but i met this girl online she said when shes done school that we move together. Be each other when me or her is hurt or have something together. I will treat her with respect and not say things will hurt her because i dont wanna be like that. I waas like that to my friends in my life. Some people say whats life for we live then die. Thats when i come in and tell life not for living and dying you get to have kids and watch them grow and grow. You get to see how beautful they look when they are small when you wrap your arms around them and you touch their skin and its smooth and u dont wanna never let go of her or him. They'll be there for you no matters what happens. When you need to cry they'll be there. If you need help when you are help They'll all be there. I know im not a adult right now im only 16teen but soon 17teen im figure out how my life will go step by step filling in the peaces well i go along in time. Having thoughts of what i wanna do in my years as i grow. Write down my problems think of what job i want, laughing and playing with the friends i have now barely worrying about anybody jump me. If anyone wants to to my love from me you cant but only share it with me. So i'll show you how my life is going right now. Im just waiting for that one girl to be with me. Do things with our kids just watching to see if they grow up like us. See how well they did better than us in school and see what they'll pick for their path in life. Then after their done high school you dont want them to leave i know we cry to see them go but they are finding their family to make. Then we'll see their kids grow and our kids grow up to be happy just like us. When you love someone you'll do the crazy thing that you cant explain. You'll tell the truth and all the happy feelings that you could never tell anyone. Then one day you'll see your girl has somethings in life that she really needs to tell you and you'll be there for anything even if you have to miss something in important thats sacrifice. You will see how much you love them and never want to let them go. you'll want them allways in your arms forever reasons. But i have been through some of this when there was times my friends were saying that they didn't want to be my buddy because some reasons i wasn't there for them. When i first moved to Kingston Ontario i thought i had losted all my friends but like a month or two in i might some of the best friends i every had. And some went in there own path but the true friends stick together but thats what i think i dont know about you. I'm that kind of guy thats healthy and like to have fun, hanging with friends and meeting knew people.
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Today i am going talk about pain the things in go through in life. Like today i got rushed in amulbance because i had troubles breathing. It's just because i have heart problems that we're trying to fix. They say it because of stress. Just thinking about about things will make me worry and i have so much things on my mind that im trying to get rid of. And now im going to start talking about pain. There are things in life that you you want to say but it wont come out and you dont wanna say it because you think they'll laugh or make fun of you. But just forget them and tell it from the heart. If people laugh its just because they are having problems and they cant say what they wanted to say but you beat them and now their laughing at you. All u have to say that you can tell it and not hide it from others. So when someone laughs at you know that they are just hiding their thoughts. Now what about your mom or dad is in the hospital and you want to be there for them every step but you cant you get kicked out. Jus t dont give up that easy you wait and wait to see if their ok. While you watch them go through the pain their in buy something for them like flowers everyone likes them. Just wait outside of the room if you cant go in you will be with them even if they think your not. Now when one of your family members died and let go of their sprits dont forget they'll be in your dreams and thoughts. Dont go drinking that one drink that you take you'll just want more and more until one day you lose your life in that one drink you took at the beggining. Then you will look back and see it again and again you want more but they are trying to get to you and say dont go through what i had done or the path they took to get we're they are this day and forever. Now just imagine you going down that path they took and you dont care about anyone one know more. Now just think about all the people you are hurting in your life your family your friends that helped you when you didn't have nobody there just think and now think about the drinks and now hows it is messing up your life just think and think of what they would say to you in those last words before they go and their gone. Here you are crying how you drinked some of the peaces that you wanted to keep in your heart. Now you are feeling bad you know what you can listening to of what they of said and turn your life around like your free. You have rights don't forget that you can do anything but don't drink since you know what that feeling feels like. I want this to get out there and let people know before they drink before it erases those memorys. You can write me anytime you feel like so don't feel bad what you have to tell there's no worry's i wont talk no one i promise. I just want to be that one guy who helps you out. Just tell me how your life is going or if you just want to skip the begining and tell me whats wrong thats ok and its fine by me. So just write me anytime ok see ya later.
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Am going to talk about love. First thing love is something that two people feel about each toher its like butterflys in both of your stomach. People will never love you if our trying to be someone else you have to be you for always. So why do people say they dont love you maybe they dont feel the love from you. Just ask them if they feel it. You dont have to be shy just tell him or her they'll understand. You have to believe me on that i have been through all that in my life so far. I didn't tell one of my best friends and she didn't think i was telling the truth and i wans't but now i can never lie to a girl now but show them the shape of my heart. They'll have to feel it from their soul. Once they do if they believe you then you'll know that the girl is waiting for you to see if you will stay with her. I been with girls through my life for like 3 years and 2 years trying to see if they just want to be together forever. But some of them cheated on me or dumped me im not shy for telling you all of this. Im trying to help people get together so they'll when it happens to them. I want them just to feel what is to be love and be caring each other be there for each other no matter what happens. If their hurt bad stay there dont go just incase they past you want to hear that couple last words they say before they are off into the air. You'll be lonely but they'll always be there with you. In your thoughs and your feelings. You wish you could have anthor girl just like her you can have anyone if you get out there and try your best for her. If you know its the girl you want to love geet her flowers any girl will like that. THen ask her if she wants to grab something to eat. Then work from there until that one day you get her you'll be happy and your feeling those butterflys in your stomach and you know its the right one. Then you can have kids if you want and your ready. I love the girls that want to be with me and share thoughts and feelings because i know i will find that girl thats just hanging on until i find her. Thats when i care for her and how good she looks everyday. When her hair smells like through the wind thats when you want grab her and will you marrie me and she will most likely say yes. Both of you will a happy ending together and dont for get that moment when you got down on your knees and you had that feeling in your head i'll be with you no matters what happens to both of you. Will see you guys and girls.
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Have anyone of you everythink you didn't belong in a group where you just didn't want to work with the people around you. Just give it a try and you will maybe make more friends that will care for you be there most of those path you make. Some people make fun of your music but your music is helping you get through things in life that people cant help you with. But you'll that day or night when you need someone with you because your afraid that you'll not make it through the night without that person or friends. Friends are there for anything you need even when you have tears in your eyes when those tears just about to drop someone you love will come and wipe them off your face you'll not have to cry anymore you need to tell them whats wrong or whats going on thats making you cry. I been through that before when my girlfriend cry I ask her what was wrong and she told me because she loved me and i didn't want her to hurt in anyway it just makes me sad. I know when a girl cry they want to share something with you but they are afraid to tell you because they might think you will take the wrong question the wrong way. So when your girl is hurt just not joking saying that you promise. Say it from your heart i know you dont want to but if you dont make that choice your going to hurt and it will stay with you forever. First you have to sit them down and im not trying to be mean but tell them you love them and they have to trust you even when she is hurt you have to tell her to tell you because its not going to go away if you just sit there and do nothing. Ask her whats wrong,is there anything i can do for you,is it me or did i do something i hurt about your feelings. Just give her a chance to talk to who every she wans't if she doesn't tell you. I know everything about this because i been through this to just take steps after steps. I hope this helps you in your life. Thanks for listening to me if you do have any questions hit my site and i'll answer to all ok thanks again.
